I need to find out what I stand for and how to use my voice. I have to do some serious thinking. I need to be able to show soul. I need to recover and grow, myself. I think this is very healthy, that is, to write it out until I know.
I want to write a novel and I can but I have to do some serious thinking and writing to get to where I can show so much soul. That much is true. Well I hope that I really can. They love to say you can do anything if only you try. I think many things can't be done, but I think that I can bare soul and be a visionary- I think that much is already inside me. I just need to think this through.
In times of need I turn to writing. It helps me to find myself. Now I turn to it and what do I need to focus on?
Oh shit. This guy hurt me and he just hurt me again. God damn. I am sad. I thought we were going to be together and he doesn't even bother to call and tell me he isn't going out with me tonight. He isn't any good, why does it still hurt though?
I have got to get past it now and focus. He is just an asshole.
I am tired.